
Have you ever wondered what it's like to want something so much that your heart feels likes its going to break everytime you see somebody with the thing you want?
Have you ever felt such a jealousy of people who have what you don't?
Do you know what it feel like when you need to show joy your face, and in your actions, but inside you're crying?
That's what I feel like when people tell me they're expecting a baby. That's how I feel with every new baby I meet.
But it's time to do something about it... the time is right, it's time to consider the road to adoption.
Come on that journey with me, help me along the way. There's going to be excitement, joy, frustration, upset, impatience, mis-understanding, and a partner who needs just a little more convincing...Seat belts on folks...
Well, I found out today that the school I'm currently working at is going to advertise for a full time position. I enjoy working at this school (I've been going there for nearly 2 years, before getting my 1 year contract) and was starting to wonder about taking on a full time position - should I apply and be successful.
It's so difficult. I want to plan for the future, but I want to be sure that my plans are flexible enough should a child become part of our lives in the near future. With this in mind, I feel that I should not apply for the job, but return to supply teaching after next April. Obviously, this gives me nearly 12 months to work on the possibility of adoption before I need to start applying for school based jobs. If we can afford it, I don't tend to work while we have a child at home. It's a personal preference, and one that Dave agrees with. Supply teaching gives me a flexibility to stop when (if) I need to. It is a clear option for me.
On the one hand, I feel disappointed that I'm already pulling out of a career that I am settled in, and want to progress in - especially when I've only had 2 days (both great!
) into my current post. But on the other, I know my long term goal is not to teach children, but to love and nurture. As much I love my class (I've known them for a couple of years too) I want a closer, more maternal love.
Does that make sense? I hope so.
It makes perfect sense. But it looks like you will have some time before the adoption get thought so maybe working full time now might give a job satisfaction until a little baby comes home. Then, when you become a SAHM (stay at home mum) you wont have the regret of not having had a go at the job!!
as always hun u r making perfect sense. u have full support from us in this house and just holler if u need us xxx love ya xxx